What I have shared in recent months hasn't amounted to much. I've not felt that I've really had too much TO share since my husband's death. The first couple of years found me lost in a blur of long days and dark nights. I was just trying to survive.
When John passed away, in July of 2021, I was at the highest weight I ever remember weighing and, to be honest, I didn't care. Eventually, I did start caring, but it seemed so hopeless. At 62 years of age it felt too late...for everything. I didn't even know where to begin.
Then, I came across a Bible verse that, in the past, had been very familiar to me (I Thessalonians 5:23) but, this time, coupled with the verse that immediately followed it, something transfixed itself deep within my spirit. I knew that God was, not only calling me to do something, but empowering me to do it. I still don't understand it all, but, one small step at a time I AM doing it.
Instead of fighting against everything and making excuses as to why I can't do something, I am trying my best to be obedient in, and faithful to, the little things.
I still have a long way to go, but since June 10, 2024 I have lost 65 pounds and have gone from a tight size 28 to a comfortable size 18.
I've noticed that since losing weight my face and body are getting saggy. I know that a lot of that will straighten out in time, but, that's one of the reasons that I signed up with Mary Kay. It's time to do something with this face! 😧
I haven't worn makeup for decades and, unfortunately, I can't do a lot with my eyes right now (eyeshadow, mascara, etc.), but, as soon as they heal, that will change. In the meantime, I will focus on skincare.
It's also time to be honest with myself and everyone else, too. The bottom line is...I want to be the best 'me' that I can be...a woman that glorifies God in spirit, soul, and body...and a woman that helps other women to be the best that they can be, too...spiritually, mentally, physically, financially.
I've come to the conclusion that it's not too late. My days are in the Lord's hands and, as long as I'm here, I want to serve Him in whatever way He allows me to do so. I've decided that I want to embrace the journey that I'm on and I look forward to whatever is next.
In the days ahead I hope to be much more transparent with my journey. If I can be of service to you somewhere along the way, please, don't hesitate to reach out.
In the meantime, know that my thoughts and prayers are with each and every person that has found their way into this site tonight. I praise the Lord for bringing me through one of the darkest times (if not THE darkest time) of my life and I look forward to the next chapter with absolute delight!
"And the very God of peace sanctify you wholly; and I pray God your whole spirit and soul and body be preserved blameless unto the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it" (I Thessalonians 5:23-24)
Until next time...
~Rebecca
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I have wondered lately if you were doing okay. It sounds like your eye surgery went well. I'm glad you hear you are living and embracing life again. When both my parents passed, especially my Mom, I withdrew in life and became depressed and a homebody. I am finally passed that and embracing life again. I gained about 20 pounds or so, and am finally on the way to losing it and staying in shape. I'm not doing shortcuts, and it is taking a longer time, but with that, am gaining good habits and loving life again. I am looking forward to your posts.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kristina! Both surgeries went very well. Now if I can just get through this intermediate, six-week period of time between surgery and new glasses. It's a chore, at times, but I am so thankful! I have literally been given my sight back. I'm sure the time will pass quickly and I'll be back in the swing of things in no time. Praise God!
DeleteI understand about the loss of both parents. It's hard! I'm glad to hear that you, too, are finding your way after loss, and are losing weight and getting in shape. That's terrific!!!
I'm not doing shortcuts, either. My loss has all been the old-fashioned way...counting calories, making sure I burn more calories than I take in, and exercising (walking or dancing) every day. I track everything on my Fitbit.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment. I appreciate it! God bless you, my friend! Let's both keep moving forward!
I'm sorry about the loss of your husband. I'm sure that can turn your life upside down. Congratulations on your weight loss and starting with your business.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Lori! I appreciate your taking the time to read and comment. It means a lot! Blessings to you!
DeleteI have been wondering what you have been up too...I so understand about grief, when our son suddenly passed away 12/11/21, depression, grief and 60-pound weight loss happened, moved back home to Florida, started a new job etc... It is never too late my friend. If it wasn't for our Lord and Savior, I would have never made it through, just keeping it real. Keeping you in prayer, I look forward to reading more of your journey.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about the loss of your son, Linda. I remember that...the same year as my husband...the same month as my own son, Nathan, back in '82. Grief is a difficult thing to manuver for sure and, yes, if it wasn't for Jesus, what hope would we have? Thank you for keeping me in your prayers. Together, we will see where this journey called 'life on this earth' takes us. Blessings, my friend! I'm continuing you in my prayers here, too!
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